Where have I been?
I could answer with a million details of our beautiful blur of a life,
with hundreds of photographs yet to be shared on my long abandoned blog,
or with the plain and simple truth…
I’ve been present.
I’ve learned to embrace a part of me that isn’t artist, business owner, wife, friend. I’ve found my “muchness” in mommyhood.
Being present can be a challenge for my ADD brain. I’m always fourteen steps ahead of myself, manifesting chaos, chasing fireflies, off in “La La land“.
However, something quite stupendous happened once the post partum hormones receded, and the trauma of childbirth slowly began to heal…
I woke up one morning and realized that I no longer had to escape to my swirly-headed daydream land.
My daydream was in my arms, cuddled on my shoulder, breathing and cooing and drinking in the world with his eyes and
being.
I am singing a different winter song than I was two years ago today . I am no longer in mourning and yearning and afraid to hope.
December 2009
My blog will still be here. I pinky swear to start sharing more, and more often.
I just needed this year to heal my once broken heart, to realize that he is here to stay, that he is all ours, to become the person he needs for me to be.
To just be present.
moment captured by my dear friend and incredibly talented artist, Lowry Wilson http://oldsouthimages.com/
Off to dream wide awake,
Bing
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What a beautiful truth!
I love this post. A beautiful truth, for sure!